the bestestestestest

and i could not ask for more.

-a

its the most wonderful time of the year

YES IT IS!!
although i HATE winter and the -50 temperatures we've had lately (2nd coldest inhabited place in the world, next to Dzalinda, Siberia. yay), i adore the Christmas season and all the memories, traditions, praying, shopping, wrapping, eating, singing, decorating, unwrapping, hugs, kisses, and everything else...
it seems like only yesterday when tuan was constantly calling/texting me long distance in Lethbridge. we weren't surprised to see that we had racked up $400 each on the next phone bill. and here i am, wishing we had $800 so i could call him when i wanted haha! we've always had a hard time being away from one another, and this is no exception. but knowing that hes going to have a blast down there and that i got my present early, it makes it a little bit easier.
my family consists of my mom, dad, and brother, as well as my extra large extended family. a lot of our family can't be here this Christmas, and we've had to change many things since our numbers have decreased. its sad, really, because all of us being together makes the holidays that much more special. but i've come to realize that no matter where my family is, we're thinking of one another and sending our love. miss you guys.

happy holidays everyone!

-a

Corn.

"I wouldn't say 'the girl of my dreams,' no. The girl of my dreams would have a bodacious rack. Probably different hair, could like sports a little more. But...truth is...Robyn's better than the girl of my dreams... because she's real." - Tom from 500 Days of Summer 


My dream girl?... That would be Miss.Dot ... She's my dream girl & she's my reality... Best of both worlds.

Scrunchy nose cutie.

Tamia is heavenly

Godbless,

-t

Book a month!

So... Dot & myself came up with a fun activity to do where we both pick out a book to read together... Then when we finish we will discuss what we thought of the book. Sort of like... a book club... but exclusively just between myself & Dot. Should be a fun thing to do with my better half. Gives us an excuse to see each other more then we already do & to see how one another interprets literature.

After our lunch date at Good Buddy's for Dim Sum(which was not very good by the way) we went to Indigo close by. We looked throughout the store not knowing what to grab... I wanted to grab The Pride & The Prejudice & Zombies 

              Looks SO DOPE!                              

but Dot was being a big poo poo face because she doesn't like zombies... So we continue to walk around some more trying to find a book we both liked(girls are gay by the way when it comes to any kind of shopping). While walking pass the 30% table a book caught my eye & no it's not because it was 30%(although it was awesome that it was 30%! woo hoo for deals!). The book was called have a little faith by Mitch Albom who also wrote Tuesday with Morrie & 5 people you meet in heaven" which I have already read and enjoyed every single words in those books. The Cover really caught my eye since most of the covers for Mitch Albom have that same theme & look. Which is good because that really caught my attention... It was like the book was calling out to me "PICK ME TUAN! I HAVE BIG JUICY LETTERS & A NICE BACK COVER! I WANT YOU TO READ ME SO HARD! OVER AND OVER AND OVER!"... Well that's not how it went... but it definitely spoke out to me passing by.

See what I mean! They look alike!

So we both picked up have a little faith & hopefully it's going to be a great book just like the other two! If you have any suggestion of books just drop us a line in the comment box! Any book whether it's comedy, tragedy, sci fi, mystery... Anything... just as long you don't mention Twilight... BECAUSE if you do... as my good friend Russell Peters would say... "SOMEBODY GONNA GET A HURT REAL BAD..." *Shakes Fist*

AAAACHOO! BLESS YOUUUU!

Godbless,

-t

... Honestly

The fact that you went out to a fucking bar while baba was visiting just astounds me! You are always putting up the "good" daughter act but in reality you're just a fucking spoiled fucking princess. I hope you had a TERRIBLE FUCKING time at the club. I am by far more disappointed than I have EVER been in you. May I be overreacting? Fuck no! Right now our family overseas aren't going through good times & the only reason why baba came up is because mama went to Vietnam to handle things. Dad was lonely in Lethbridge so he came up to visit US! I don't give a fuck if you had a birthday or you promised your friend you were going to go to a fucking bar. It's FUCKING DAD! Shows how important family is to you! You always say "Oh I miss Dad" But when he shows up you hang out with him for a bit then just bail out?! FUCK YOU! AND not only did I confront you about it today BEFORE you went out you go and cry about it to your friend?! FUCK YOU! I don't care if I look like a bad older brother just because I want your sorry little princess punk ass to stay home to hang out with dad with me Ashley & Kelvin. Sorry if we're not "exciting" enough for your fucking eyes. Go ahead go dress up like a slut and go dance with your slutty friends. Here's a huge FUCK YOU! I don't want to speak to you. Don't talk to me don't even look at me. Right now I am ashamed to have you as my little sister. Mom & Dad never brought you up like this.

-t

Hello Hello Hello...

Hi...

Have you ever been lost?... Like not lost as in like "I'm lost... I can't find this place... Can you please help me?" But absolutely have no clue what you are doing in life... Or you've strayed away from the goal you set out for yourself because obstacles and what not has distracted you from it... It sucks when you realize it... and you know what's happening... yet you can't stop it from steering off course...

I think at times when that happens it's when you go back to the basics... The fundamentals... Your morals & beliefs that has been place by your parents... The very foundation that you have built everything upon... You're not looking back so to speak or trying to relive your past... you're just looking back at the process what made you... well... YOU!

I've had the opportunity to fly out to Whitehorse, Yukon then take a 2 hour van ride to Carmacks where we performed a show for the young Firat Nations people... To me it was such a great experience... I was so excited... like a little girl in a candy store... Except I wasn't a little girl... and I wasn't in a candy shop... I was in Yukon freezing my balls off... Yet to be able to TRAVEL ALL THE WAY UP TO THE GREAT WHITE NORTH! Is by far the most astounding places I've been... The culture... the people... just amazing... How they continue on living without the daily pressure of MTV or BET... or looking at the magazine to see who's pregnant or what's Angelina Jolie saying about Brad Pitt & Jennifer Aniston... These people... Don't give a rats ass... You know what they care about? Each other in the community and living life to the fullest! That's what the world should be! A planet of Cuddle & Hugs!


I don't ... really know where I'm going with this blog... well I usually don't know where I'm going with any of my blogs... I just wanted to point out that the Yukon people are an inspiration to me and have changed me on how I look at things... I will be a forever student to life & God.


Thank you God for this amazing experience...


Godbless,


-t

Faking the funk...

Man you don't have try to act all cool in front of me saying how you like the artist but in actual reality you never gave the artist a good listen... I bet you can't even name a song from him without looking on youtube... Don't fake the funk man, just say you're going because so & so... I hate when people do that... It seriously gets under my skin & this is what I mean about faking the funk. Be honest with yourself because when you're fake people can see right through it. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Pooey!

Sorry hate rant... Just didn't like the shit that went down. Goes to show you how some people just say things to fit in.

Forever outside the box thinking.

-t

This is how you bowl!

Made my day,

Godbless,

-t

Man...

Don't be claiming you have style like me. I dance better dress better then you ever will. Quit jacking my tops. You know it too.

Faking the funk motherfucker.

-t

I need a...

Motherf-ing bad ass gangster insult slinging coke drinking bass in your face SC squad!...  I've been tearing shit up for 6 months now ever since I started up again and I've been lone wolf smashing bitches left and right. I need a clan so we can terrorize the channels up! GET WIT IT! JOIN THE WU!

RZA Add me up... Murder them shits.


Godbless
-t

you're my someone

someone who will put up with the things loving me can bring
but still be there to see us through
someone who would put up with the strange & complicated things
cuz i would do the same for him, too
someone who i can be real with
ain't gotta be perfect
cuz loving one another is all that matters
it's not hard to explain, so believe me when say
that i found all of that in you

musiq soulchild - someone

-a

thankful

happy thanksgiving everyone!

i had one heck of a meal!!! it hurt to breathe afterward. my garlic mashed potatoes were a hit, and it wasn't even necessary to tell everyone that someone else made them. i finally had a haircut! about time... it's been a year since i've had one. we explored the world of modeling today, and used tyra banks as an inspiration to try to "smile with your eyes"... not so successful. i don't think the world is ready for us yet. HAHA

i am so in love with my family. i'm thankful for all 100 of them (give or take. and no, i'm really not exaggerating). my goofy, crazy, hilarious best friends are people who i can go to for anything. i'm so thankful to have them be the foundation of my life, and that we spent a great evening together.

i'd like to thank the Lord for all my blessings, especially tuan, friends and family. there's a lot i'm thankful for, but that could take a while. i think this holiday gives you a good excuse to stop and think about what's really important to you, who you care about, and love your life. focus not on what's missing, but what you have.

(sorry for the overkill of the word "thankful")

-a

new goal in life

learn how to play this song



... i am really REALLY rusty :( piano skills, please come back

-a

Gleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyipiii

Aha that's funny.

Godbless,

-t

Dopizzy.

Good cover.

Godbless,

-t

Keeping that fucking shit REAL!

As much as I've grown to dislike Kanye because of his past two albums were fucking dirty he sticks to his gun! Being an arrogant asshole. LOVE IT!

-t

Junk

My pokemon brings all the nerds to the yard.
And they're like, do you wanna trade cards?
Darn right, I wanna trade you cards.
I'll trade you this, but not my charizard.


Godbless,

-t

better late than never

my favorite song by the king of pop.



since his passing, there's been tons of tributes to him by doing covers of his songs. it's interesting to hear other people's renditions of it. there are some good ones out there, but it's difficult to match the unforgettable original.





how many times a day do i use the word "i"? i know that i need to care for myself, but how many times do i care for others and truly think about their well-being? i've always considered myself a selfish person. sure, i do dumb little things like donate clothes and throw a can into the food drive at thanksgiving, but i don't do it for the right reasons. i do it cuz i don't feel the need to have those things. i don't ever stop to think what happens on the other end. well, better late than never.

"if you wanna make the world a better place, take a look at yourself, and make that change"

ps - tuan come home please. i miss you :(

-a

I'm in peace...

.. When I'm with you :)

-t

My Prayer.

Dear Lord,

I am praying to you to ask you for strength & courage to finish school. I pray for my Mom & Dad for their health and well being. I know I've put stress onto their shoulder with me being the way that I am. Please Lord give them strength to carry on through. Give me strength to focus on what needs to be done. I pray for my sister so you can help her find her way through life. Lord I ask you to help us in time of need... I love my family because they are all I have including you. Lord keep us safe. Lord keep us safe. Lord keep us safe. Lord keep us safe. Lord keep us safe.

Our Father, who art in heaven
hallowed be thy Name,
thy kingdom come,
thy will be done,
on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread
And forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those
who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil.
For thine is the kingdom,
and the power, and the glory,
for ever and ever.
Amen.

Thank you for hearing my prayers.

Love you God.

-t

Fuck you kid...

...I will smash your face you disrespecting fuck. I will smoke you on the floor and then smash your face with my fist. Thinking you're all that coming into a circle like that thinking you're going to get away with it. I will smoke you and your wannabe born crew. I don't care if you've went to Rivers workshop I will smash you and destroy you. I WILL MAKE YOU QUIT BBOYING because that's how hard I will smoke you. Next time I see you I will start shit. I only held back because we were at a family place, I told you I'd battle you there and you backed out like a punk. Talking shit like you wanted to fight instead. Fuck you I'll smoke you on the floor then curb stomp the fuck out of you. I know you're talking shit thinking you're all high and mighty, next time I see you kid I'ma put a hurting on you. 

-t

Just to be clear...

... That last post wasn't me. That was dot! Haha I usually sign out with.

-t

She signs out with.

-a

And now you know.

She's CRAZY :)

Heck yes I do.

Godbless,

-t

wow

you are a lying, unfaithful, stupid tramp who gets involved with the wrong people. its all your fault. please go die.

-a

Never forget...

RIP Jay Lepke aka Bboy React. May you continue to live through this dance.

Godbless,

-t

Simplicity is key.

Being in a relationship is hard. Committing to the relationship and making sacrifices for each other it's hard... but if it's the right person then it's easy. Looking at that girl and knowing that she's all you want out of life that should be the easiest thing in the world and if it's not like that... then she's not the one.



Lately I've been feeling the black and white older pictures. Things were much more simpler back then. Maybe people tend to forget that and make relationship nowadays more complicated then it is. Guys & Girls are both equal to blame. Girls always having to play their games and guys always having to have a number of girls they've slept with. Those sort of things get in the way of a true relationship... Don't get caught up in the hype, keep it simple. Do you like her/him? Does he/she like you? Are you willing to work hard for it? Is he/she willing to work hard for it? No one could really be perfect for each other but hard work and sacrifice you can make anything happen. Simple as that.

Complicated is overrated.

Godbless,

-t

tuan tuan tuan tuan

his eyes
his dog
his mouth
his eyebrows
his man giggle
his nose
his cooking
his hair
his hands
his sister
his smile
his voice
his hugs

... i miss it more than anything


-a

When you know... You know.

Your heart know things your mind can't explain...



I'm the fugly she's the pretty... Why is she with me? Erm... I have no idea.



OM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM!

Godbless,
-t

& I'm Spot.

Aha,

As Dot has mention I had a great idea of me and her sharing a blog. Why? because it's a great way for us to share our writings to you guys! More updates more updates more updates also different look on things. Plus I've been so busy with dancing that I haven't kept up with the updating. So twice the Man/Woman power meaning more updates. Of course my writings will be cooler, funnier, better, awesomer, fantaticer, special...er... but you guys can put up with her writing... she's not bad ;)

Some of you may wonder how we got our nicks for each other. Funny story... Well not really... We actually were online one day watching youtube together and we found this video.



The characters in the video are named Spot & Dot. We thought this video was hilarious and cute. So ever since then we started calling each other that from time to time. Cheesey I know... but we love cheese... well I do :)...

Anyways, WELCOME to Spot&Dot's blogspot! :D

Godbless,

-t



We're attractive... I know.

hi, i'm dot

spot got the bright idea of us sharing a blog, so here's my first post. i'm currently in my first week of visiting the philippines. its been crazy! i've been missing my family, my friends, spot, and of course my blackberry...

it's a 16+ hour flight to get from edmonton to manila, and we had layovers in vancouver and hong kong. our flight got delayed from vancouver to hong kong, and as a result we missed our flight from hong kong to manila. we ended up staying a night in hong kong, which was cool cuz we got 2 free hotel rooms and food money.

we finally get to manila, and right as i step off the plane im like "it smells funny", and my dad says "yup, smells like philippines!". it was a big culture shock driving around. theres security guards everywhere, people drive like maniacs, theres people showering in the streets, and the houses look like they've been there for thousands of years. it's been hard getting used to the environment, but i love it now. i'm used to the heat and the humidity and the bugs... i still scream and jump when i see cockroaches though!

theres lots of cheap clothes and stuff here (especially in a mall called green hills. it's like a big market) and the food here is even cheaper! i've been missing spot a lot lately... and as much as i love life here, i miss it at home. 3 more weeks to go!

-a

SPOTmissDOT

Aiyah! Dot left me for a month to the Philippines! I'll be waiting. :)

ilu.imu. 

Godbless,

-t

Up.

UP is the best movie ever.period

Godbless,

-t

Feel good music.

Summer is here. Feels good. Finally.

The Seed (BBC radio version-8in/8out) - The Roots

Hope everyones summer is starting out great. Enjoy the rays and the ice cream. :)

Godbless,

-t

I'm...

Cuddley bitch! Deal with it!

-t

Pocket Aces.

:)

Hahahaha. <3 AA >.<

Godbless,

-t

Hard pill to swallow.

As much as I love being around people, I love being by myself even more. I've grown a custom being by myself... No I need you...

spot&dot.

-t

Biggest thing in my itty bitty world...

Scientists say she's the second Sunshine... Even when she's sleeping and snoring... :)

Godbless,

-t

Oh My TGG GOODNESS

My ear buds was rudely fucked last Friday by my boys TGG(No Homo) who opened up for Masia One & Tanya Morgan. The sweet sounds of "Bad Habit" made me scream "BITCH LEAVE ME ALONE!" 

The Greater Good...NESS!!! Their interview at aznraps.com

myspace/website/etikidblog/twitterkid/Jdats/DjSenh

- Dj Senh - etikid - Joey Dats - TGG -

Aha, peep it you won't be disappointed.

Godbless,

-t

Don't think for one second...

... That since you took up the green and you speak about "in depth" things that makes you cool. Buddy get over yourself. You're trying way too hard and people see it. Quit biting too for reals. You ain't flipping or anything you are straight up TAKING. If you think this is you, then it probably is. Pfft fucking fakes.

-t

Please... Put That Uh Revolver Away.

As some of you may know I headed to my hometown during the Easter break. Caught up with some good friends and just relaxed. Did some high school bullshit, reminisce, practiced with the fellas, went up to Calgary for a jam, ate my momma's cooking you know the usual. Weekend = success.

Coming back up we had to drop off a good friend's little brother off. As I was in his room I rummaging through his pile of magazine and one magazine in particular caught my eye. "JUXTAPOZ". Which is an Art & Culture magazine and it was the "New York city Graffiti Issue" I skimmed through it quick and was very intrigued by the contents. So I had to have it. "Aye yo Liem, I'ma jack this and give it back to you during May Long!" He mumbled an answer that I couldn't make out but I didn't give a fuck I was taking it regardless. 

Aha Bear.

On the way up back to Edmonton I took a good hour or two looking through the magazine and I must say I don't know anything about art but there's some damn good shit in here. A lot of premium street artists were in this New York city issue. Heads including KR, JEST, KET, SEEN, FREEDOM(This guy is nuts. He does old school throw ups making it feel like it's the 50's), Haze, Lady Pink, Quik, Ghost, and many many heads with unbelievable talent. It was amazing seeing so many different outlets on how artists separate them self from others and the norm but this one artist stood out the most in my mind. The guy goes by the name of "Crash". I'll let some of his art in the magazine "JUXTAPOZ" do the talking.

Homfront;Blogfront;Interview

Crash has reinvented himself countless of times to stay fresh and stay new. Changing from doing throw ups and bombs on the IRT trains, to doing Art gallery shows but still being legit and keeping the same mind frame from when he first started.

"Towards the end I wanted more, painting my name on a canvas just wasn't enough for me. I had evolved"

- Crash

I guess in a way I want to be like Crash... but in a bboy form. Always changing, always evolving but still having that same swag I always have where people can say that's ttrockwell. It's inspirational to see someone do that countless of times changing paint & color but never changing the foundation & the drive.

Thank you Crash for the inspiration.

"You know, when you're in your 20's you're just fearless, you feel you can't do anything wrong. The difference between now and then is that I was shouting back then. Now I'm older and I have 10 other ways of telling a story; I don't need to shout."

-Crash

Godbless,

-t

OH WHICH REMINDS ME! I know this is a Hypebeast thing to do... but my lovely got them for me and they're just... orgasmic. HUF x DVS Doughboys please. Thanks Dot.

Be jealous =)

Just for a minute.

"I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in and knocked me on my face
Feels like I'm in a race but I already won first place

I never thought I fall for you as hard as I did (as hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinking about our life, our house and kids (Yeah)
Every morning I look at you and smile
Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down (knocked me down)"

Just know even when I'm out there in the world doing my thing...

I'm still your man.

Godbless,

-t

Thoughts.

Hi. Hello. How are you? Good, yourself? I'm good. *Insert awkward pause*

This is how usually conversations goes with a acquaintances, families, friends, or just anyone really. Whether they are very close friends or a very distant relative it usually starts off like this. Well most of the time. I just wonder if someone was really honest to that general question would sound like.

Hi.Hello.How are you? I'm okay, yourself? Well you see I was just layed off by my work who I've been working at a dead end job for the past 5 years, then coming home to find my apartment being boarded up and condemned because of termites so I went to my girlfriend's place. Let myself in because I had the spare key. I walked towards her room and to find her banging the waiter who she eye fuck the shit out of every time we go to our favorite restaurant. Not only was she cheating but blamed me for her reasoning. After hearing her garbage excuse I grabbed my shit from her place then walked out to find my car being towed because I've parked on a street where it was only allowed from one certain time to another certain time to be allowed to park on the street. I didn't even see the sign because it was hidden by the scrubs and bushes. To make it worse I got a phone call about my father in the hospital who just had his 4th heart attack and my mother who bitches and complains about what am I going to do with my life... Then my mother tells me my childhood dog Lucy just passed away 2 weeks ago... I also found out that I have contracted chlamydia from my cheating ex-girlfriend... Other then that... I'm fine. Thanks for asking.

Could you imagine that kind of response? How would you react? What would you even say? That's a lot to take in I guess but if someone asks you that question I guess they're asking for it you know. I do that as well... I can have the crummiest day and still answer "I'm fine thanks." Why? Probably because I don't want to worry them about my problems or they probably wouldn't be interested on how my day went at all. I find the "How are you?" thrown around like a cheap hooker shared by 6 jock buddies. So I guess I don't believe when a person asks me "How are you?" and truly mean it.

I really don't know where I'm going with this blog exactly... I guess I was just observing today and I find that a lot of people ask "How are you?" but not really care two cents about how your day went at all. I guess what I'm trying to say is if I asked "How are you?" I mean it. Be honest and tell me what's up. Don't beat around the bush. Don't give me a scripted response like "I'm fine thanks, how about you?" or "Good good, just you know the usual." Give me a real response even if it's the slightest insignificant news I would like to hear about it... If I didn't... I wouldn't be asking.

So with that being said...

How are you? :)

Godbless,

-t

I can read'

Uhhh... FUCK YEAH "Bears trade for quarterback Jay Cutler"

"By: Larry Mayer | Last Updated: 4/2/2009 5:34 PM 
 
LAKE FOREST, Ill. – Not only were the Bears involved in the Jay Cutler derby, but they won it. 

The Bears pulled off a blockbuster trade Thursday, boldly acquiring Pro Bowl quarterback Jay Cutler and a 2009 fifth-round draft pick (140th overall) in exchange for quarterback Kyle Orton and three draft picks: a first-rounder (18th) and third-rounder (84th) in 2009 and a first-rounder in 2010."

For the whole article click here: Bears

YES FUCKING YES! Bears are improving their roster by ten fold. Finally got a stable quarter back they can actually rely on who actually made pro bowl Jay Cutler is going to be a beast hooking up with Hester with those deep bombs. Not only that but they've acquired fucking Pace from the St.Louis Rams who not only is a 7 - time pro bowler but fucking protected Kurt Warners ass in 99' season when they won the Super Bowl. Get ready NFL Bears are going to win the Super Bowl this year. I promise you. GAME OVER YOU FUCKS!

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW YEAH!

Godbless,

-t

Teaser Pleaser

Personally I felt I was really on during the cypher but when the battles came I was alright. Bah oh well, I had fun. A little something something I put together. Enjoy.

Teaser -

Godbless,

-t

YOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOU

Really digging this track by Christina Milian. Check her music video she is hecka fine. I just nutted.

"If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more (No more) 
I would still have you, you, you ,you, you, you, you 
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war (To War) 
I'll be fighting with you, you, you ,you, you 
Because it's us against the world 
The world, the world 
You know it's us against the world 
The world, the world, ohh"

Godbless,

-t

Bear and Me.

Hello readers or whoever,

I just wanted to share something that I wrote in my journal about my wonderful most exciting, more adventurous, most rebellious, most outrageous, most funniest dog in the world. My best friend in the world... Bear Bear. It's very mushy and I wrote it after watching "Marley & Me" With Owen Wilson and Jennifer Aniston. If you guys haven't watched it then I suggest you do. It's one of those tear jerking ones, so fellas if you don't want to shed a tear in front of your lady friend then watch it alone. Trust, it gets to any guy that has a dog or anyone that has a heart. Which we all do. I apologize for the sentence structure, my grammar, my slang and pretty much horrible writing but it was one of those freestyle writing thing I just did to let my heart and my thoughts do the writing instead of editing using a thesaurus trying to make me sound smart.

Bear Bear sometimes I feel like I don't appreciate you more then I should. You've always been there for me at my lowest point. Not like you have a choice haha but honestly if you did... you would be there. As I sit here writing in my journal while you lay beside me snoring like a little kid passed out from eating too much candy I come to think about how time has passed us by so fast. It's been 3 years since I got you. It was my 19th birthday when I got you. You were a gift from my sister and friends. The best gift I have received... I thank you those who chipped in for Bear Bear and who thought up of the idea.

When me and Linh were growing up we always wanted a dog in our family but we never could have a dog because of my mom. She wasn't too fond of dogs because of her past. Back when she was a little girl she had a lot of dogs... but their purpose wasn't for companion more guard dogs. We did get a dog however when I was like 12 or 13 and her name was Mandy... But shortly after a couple months we had to give her up because my mom couldn't take it. I was heart broken because I wasn't told we were giving her up... When I got home from school she was gone... To a farm. I'm sure she's doing great and living it up running around in the farm... but anyhow. Yeah when I was a kid I've always wanted a St.Bernard dog, which is a HUGE HUGE HUGE ass dog and I've always wanted to name my dog Bear. Reason being was because my favorite animal was a Bear and because my favorite football team was the Chicago Bear. Also St.Bernard are known to be one of the largest dog you can have so I thought the name would suit it very well. 

When I got back from Lethbridge from visiting my parents I came home late late night and I came home while Linh and Eddy were in the living room. They were giggling and smiling like they had something up their sleeves. Then you came running out of your little box towards me... Buddy you were the cutest thing I have ever saw. I thought the dog was one of Linh's friends dog or Eddy's friends dog or something. When they told me that it was a present for my 19th birthday I was in disbelief... I couldn't believe that I had a dog to my very own... You came towards me panting and wagging your tail as if you knew I was the one you were being given too... You sat on my lap while I pet you... stroking my hand through your soft soft fur. I was in disbelief... Then Linh and Eddy quickly snapped me back to reality and asked me to choose a name for you. I had to really think about this one... because I've always wanted to my dog Bear... specifically a St.Bernard... but thinking it over I named you Bear anyways. But I wouldn't have it any other way because although you're small and a little pansy at times you have a heart of a grizzly bear... You always stand up on your hind legs and beg which sometimes reminds me of grizzlies stand up on their hind legs to intimidate people. Haha your name suits you very well and I'm very happy that I named you Bear because... I don't think any other names would ever suit you.

The first night that you slept at our condo, I put the box you slept in beside my bed. You kept whining, and whining and whining and I got fed up with it so I picked you up and placed you beside me. You stopped your whining and laid comfortably beside me facing me. I just starred at you and you starred at me. It was like us trying to get to know each other. It's funny because the next moment you tried getting down from my bed because you had to pee, but you couldn't because it was too high. Haha so I had to place you down so you can go pee on your pee pad. Then after peeing and taking a drink from your drinking bowl you came back to the bed wanting back on. I placed you beside me again and you passed out for good. I would never forget this moment because this is when I knew we would be pals forever. As gay as that sounds and mushy as that sounds it's the truth and don't judge me man because I know you had bromance for me too. 

The very next morning I had a rude awakening... not from my alarm but from you sniffing my face and your paws jabbing into my gut trying to wake me up. Haha and it was probably the best wake up call because over the past 3 years you've done that quite often. Sometimes when you slept in Linh's room and me and Linh had class at 8:00 in the morning she would always get up early to come wake me up. But she didn't have too anymore, because all she had to do was open the door and you come bolting out of the room jumping onto my bed and giving me a whole lot of hurting with you jumping onto my stomach and licking my face. Although sometimes it was a pain because I was extremely tired, it was the best wake up call I could get. I would replace all my alarm clocks if you had a set alarm on you... but you don't.. which is fine haha.

Me and you have so many memories together it's ridiculous and it's only been 3 years... The one time when I thought I lost you... When I was cleaning the house, and I told you to stay on the bed but you were whining so I let you out into the porch area so you could get some fresh air. I left the screen door open so you could come in anytime you wanted. I went into Linh's room to continue cleaning and when I came out you weren't there. I panicked and looked for you everywhere. All over the house yelling your name wondering where you were. Then I had that craziest thought that you might have been able to jump out of our porch area and ran into the parking lot. So I ran outside ran into the parking lot screaming your name at the top of my lungs. Freaking out I search high and low not being able to find you. I came back into the house and phoned Linh and Eddy telling them I think I lost you. I was like a terrified mother who lost her child. After getting off the phone with Eddy and Linh, I continue the search. I went through the whole parking lot of super store calling your name asking if people saw a dog wandering around. No dice. I went back home and Eddy was finally home from work. So me and him both went to the park to look for you. We split up ways and walked around for about 10 mins. Then when me and Eddy got back to our meeting point Eddy was just getting off the phone with Linh and had the hugest grin on his face. I was like "Yo what's the deal did you find him?" All he said was "Tuan... he's in the condo." All I could say was "WHAT?! WHERE?!" Eddy replied with a tone that made me feel like a complete idiot "He was in Linh's washroom... yelping and trying to get out..." Haha I guess while I was cleaning you must have came back from getting your fresh air and went into Linh's washroom without me noticing and somehow got yourself stuck in the washroom... Haha then when we got home, I just ran into the condo saw you playing with Linh and Rainette and all I could do was just slap my forehead and go "FUCK I'm an idoit" I came rushing to you grabbed you and didn't let you go for about 45 mins then didn't let you out of my sight for the whole week. Haha... Oh man. 

You were there for me when I was feeling down about myself. I remember I would take walks because I couldn't talk to anyone else about how I felt or anything and you were there walking beside me sniffing every bus post and peeing on every fire hydrant. We went to the park this one night and I sat on the swings and let you off the leash which was the first time and you just sat next to me while I pumped my legs to get height. Knowing that I was frustrated or something was wrong. Or you're always waiting for me outside the bathroom door while I take a shower, or taking a deuce, or even peeing. Or how when I get home from school you're always there at the door waiting then when I get into the condo you jump up and down trying to knock me over. Or when I'm on the computer talking to people on msn and you're bored and you would just look at me and growl then would jump on my back to let me know you wanted to play. 

Bah this is getting long but this entry that I am writing this for you Bear Bear. I know sometimes I yell at you or even spank you because you chewed up one of my books or you peed on the ground or you messed up something. Or sometimes even I say the words like "I wish I never had you" Just know I never EVER EVER EVER EVER IN A MILLION YEARS mean those words. You are my best friend and I would never ever would replace you with anyone. You've been there when I was at my low point and I when i was at my high. You never judged me. It doesn't matter to you if I'm rich or had a car or had nice designer clothes or nice kicks. It never mattered to you if I was the best bboy or the smartest person in class or that I'm accident prone. You are the fucking shit. You are the best fucking dog in the whole fucking world. Anyone that fronts  I will make sure you pee on their rug. 

3 years of memories and pee stains... many many many more to come... I can't wait kiddo.

Your homie,

-Tuan

Here are some awesome MSpaint pictures that I made with me and Bear Bear.

1 & 2 Um... 3... Err... 4 :)

1,2,3,4

I'm so glad I found you. I love being around you. You make it easy, as easy as one1, two2, three3, four4.
There's only 1 thing 2 do, 3 words 4 you:

Guess what they are.

_   _ _ _ _   _ _ _!

Say it.

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"From small things, Mama, big things one day come." Bruce Springsteen

Godbless,

-t