I just wanted to share something that I wrote in my journal about my wonderful most exciting, more adventurous, most rebellious, most outrageous, most funniest dog in the world. My best friend in the world... Bear Bear. It's very mushy and I wrote it after watching "Marley & Me" With Owen Wilson and Jennifer Aniston. If you guys haven't watched it then I suggest you do. It's one of those tear jerking ones, so fellas if you don't want to shed a tear in front of your lady friend then watch it alone. Trust, it gets to any guy that has a dog or anyone that has a heart. Which we all do. I apologize for the sentence structure, my grammar, my slang and pretty much horrible writing but it was one of those freestyle writing thing I just did to let my heart and my thoughts do the writing instead of editing using a thesaurus trying to make me sound smart.
Bear Bear sometimes I feel like I don't appreciate you more then I should. You've always been there for me at my lowest point. Not like you have a choice haha but honestly if you did... you would be there. As I sit here writing in my journal while you lay beside me snoring like a little kid passed out from eating too much candy I come to think about how time has passed us by so fast. It's been 3 years since I got you. It was my 19th birthday when I got you. You were a gift from my sister and friends. The best gift I have received... I thank you those who chipped in for Bear Bear and who thought up of the idea.
When me and Linh were growing up we always wanted a dog in our family but we never could have a dog because of my mom. She wasn't too fond of dogs because of her past. Back when she was a little girl she had a lot of dogs... but their purpose wasn't for companion more guard dogs. We did get a dog however when I was like 12 or 13 and her name was Mandy... But shortly after a couple months we had to give her up because my mom couldn't take it. I was heart broken because I wasn't told we were giving her up... When I got home from school she was gone... To a farm. I'm sure she's doing great and living it up running around in the farm... but anyhow. Yeah when I was a kid I've always wanted a St.Bernard dog, which is a HUGE HUGE HUGE ass dog and I've always wanted to name my dog Bear. Reason being was because my favorite animal was a Bear and because my favorite football team was the Chicago Bear. Also St.Bernard are known to be one of the largest dog you can have so I thought the name would suit it very well.
When I got back from Lethbridge from visiting my parents I came home late late night and I came home while Linh and Eddy were in the living room. They were giggling and smiling like they had something up their sleeves. Then you came running out of your little box towards me... Buddy you were the cutest thing I have ever saw. I thought the dog was one of Linh's friends dog or Eddy's friends dog or something. When they told me that it was a present for my 19th birthday I was in disbelief... I couldn't believe that I had a dog to my very own... You came towards me panting and wagging your tail as if you knew I was the one you were being given too... You sat on my lap while I pet you... stroking my hand through your soft soft fur. I was in disbelief... Then Linh and Eddy quickly snapped me back to reality and asked me to choose a name for you. I had to really think about this one... because I've always wanted to my dog Bear... specifically a St.Bernard... but thinking it over I named you Bear anyways. But I wouldn't have it any other way because although you're small and a little pansy at times you have a heart of a grizzly bear... You always stand up on your hind legs and beg which sometimes reminds me of grizzlies stand up on their hind legs to intimidate people. Haha your name suits you very well and I'm very happy that I named you Bear because... I don't think any other names would ever suit you.
The first night that you slept at our condo, I put the box you slept in beside my bed. You kept whining, and whining and whining and I got fed up with it so I picked you up and placed you beside me. You stopped your whining and laid comfortably beside me facing me. I just starred at you and you starred at me. It was like us trying to get to know each other. It's funny because the next moment you tried getting down from my bed because you had to pee, but you couldn't because it was too high. Haha so I had to place you down so you can go pee on your pee pad. Then after peeing and taking a drink from your drinking bowl you came back to the bed wanting back on. I placed you beside me again and you passed out for good. I would never forget this moment because this is when I knew we would be pals forever. As gay as that sounds and mushy as that sounds it's the truth and don't judge me man because I know you had bromance for me too.
The very next morning I had a rude awakening... not from my alarm but from you sniffing my face and your paws jabbing into my gut trying to wake me up. Haha and it was probably the best wake up call because over the past 3 years you've done that quite often. Sometimes when you slept in Linh's room and me and Linh had class at 8:00 in the morning she would always get up early to come wake me up. But she didn't have too anymore, because all she had to do was open the door and you come bolting out of the room jumping onto my bed and giving me a whole lot of hurting with you jumping onto my stomach and licking my face. Although sometimes it was a pain because I was extremely tired, it was the best wake up call I could get. I would replace all my alarm clocks if you had a set alarm on you... but you don't.. which is fine haha.
Me and you have so many memories together it's ridiculous and it's only been 3 years... The one time when I thought I lost you... When I was cleaning the house, and I told you to stay on the bed but you were whining so I let you out into the porch area so you could get some fresh air. I left the screen door open so you could come in anytime you wanted. I went into Linh's room to continue cleaning and when I came out you weren't there. I panicked and looked for you everywhere. All over the house yelling your name wondering where you were. Then I had that craziest thought that you might have been able to jump out of our porch area and ran into the parking lot. So I ran outside ran into the parking lot screaming your name at the top of my lungs. Freaking out I search high and low not being able to find you. I came back into the house and phoned Linh and Eddy telling them I think I lost you. I was like a terrified mother who lost her child. After getting off the phone with Eddy and Linh, I continue the search. I went through the whole parking lot of super store calling your name asking if people saw a dog wandering around. No dice. I went back home and Eddy was finally home from work. So me and him both went to the park to look for you. We split up ways and walked around for about 10 mins. Then when me and Eddy got back to our meeting point Eddy was just getting off the phone with Linh and had the hugest grin on his face. I was like "Yo what's the deal did you find him?" All he said was "Tuan... he's in the condo." All I could say was "WHAT?! WHERE?!" Eddy replied with a tone that made me feel like a complete idiot "He was in Linh's washroom... yelping and trying to get out..." Haha I guess while I was cleaning you must have came back from getting your fresh air and went into Linh's washroom without me noticing and somehow got yourself stuck in the washroom... Haha then when we got home, I just ran into the condo saw you playing with Linh and Rainette and all I could do was just slap my forehead and go "FUCK I'm an idoit" I came rushing to you grabbed you and didn't let you go for about 45 mins then didn't let you out of my sight for the whole week. Haha... Oh man.
You were there for me when I was feeling down about myself. I remember I would take walks because I couldn't talk to anyone else about how I felt or anything and you were there walking beside me sniffing every bus post and peeing on every fire hydrant. We went to the park this one night and I sat on the swings and let you off the leash which was the first time and you just sat next to me while I pumped my legs to get height. Knowing that I was frustrated or something was wrong. Or you're always waiting for me outside the bathroom door while I take a shower, or taking a deuce, or even peeing. Or how when I get home from school you're always there at the door waiting then when I get into the condo you jump up and down trying to knock me over. Or when I'm on the computer talking to people on msn and you're bored and you would just look at me and growl then would jump on my back to let me know you wanted to play.
Bah this is getting long but this entry that I am writing this for you Bear Bear. I know sometimes I yell at you or even spank you because you chewed up one of my books or you peed on the ground or you messed up something. Or sometimes even I say the words like "I wish I never had you" Just know I never EVER EVER EVER EVER IN A MILLION YEARS mean those words. You are my best friend and I would never ever would replace you with anyone. You've been there when I was at my low point and I when i was at my high. You never judged me. It doesn't matter to you if I'm rich or had a car or had nice designer clothes or nice kicks. It never mattered to you if I was the best bboy or the smartest person in class or that I'm accident prone. You are the fucking shit. You are the best fucking dog in the whole fucking world. Anyone that fronts I will make sure you pee on their rug.
3 years of memories and pee stains... many many many more to come... I can't wait kiddo.
Your homie,
-Tuan
Here are some awesome MSpaint pictures that I made with me and Bear Bear.
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